hopefully something rhetorical

While reading a blog that I am not supposed to read anymore, I realized that more writing on my part would make me feel like I was being productive. With recent good news about the likelihood of staying put for a little longer, I was torn between the good news and actually staying in this place for longer.

I like my job(s) most days, I love our house most days, but I am feeling the itch to move again soon. Hopefully things will settle themselves out soon. I am sure that they will. I have a feeling that it is the itch of a new class that doesn’t seem the perfect fit that is the larger issue. I like to be the “expert,” which is why I like my engineering students so much. And, with this lit class, I just don’t feel as experty as I normally would. However, I do know full-well that I am more experty than I think that I am, and yes I know that it isn’t a word. But, being an English major allows me to do several things and making up words is one of them. Another one of them is correcting people’s grammar, which I really do try to avoid doing.

I think that if I more clearly get my butt in gear with all the stuff that I know that I want to be accomplishing, then I will feel better. Right now I feel that I am at a crossroads of sorts. How do I stay involved in a field that I know that I am not going to be able to actively enter for years? And, if I don’t stay actively involved, then how do I enter it when I can? And, where can all the other aspects of my life fit into the larger plan?

I feel like Carrie right now, how very Sex in the City of me. But, this is totally the wrong Manhattan for that, and I am pretty sure that I am not a size two, well maybe my left leg is. I just need to reevaluate, so I can stay on track.

It is amazing how this medium will pull ideas from you that you didn’t know that you were having.